A VISIT TO MY MUSIC VIDEO LOCATIONS ONCE AGAIN ... :)

Hi all those friends who have watched my video..... emotional indulgence time :) .....every artist creates his own world for self indulgence , not for exhibition , later people may or may not acknowledge it but if that world is childlike and colourful to oneself ,nothing else matters as much, appreciation adds to it but lack of affirmation doesn't take away anything,although I am happy that you all liked it .....Last time after I made Desert Groove album for mom and shot a song in a shutdown factory ,I came to know , they are demolishing it , I had to go there once again ....alone.....with my camera and clicked every spot where I had shot the video .....it was a feeling of nostalgia and a gesture of gratitude towards the factory for becoming a beautiful part of my memory , that album is still there in my Facebook albums , today again , after releasing .... DIL TU HAI DEEWANA ....I happened to go to a couple of those locations all over again with a friend and it was like visiting my ancestral house ...

it is such a beautiful feeling to remember every tree,every wall , every stone that witnessed my shoot and I remember , moments with each one of them , where I stood, sat, jumped from,moved or placed our equipments on ,all greenery has disappeared, but I stood in the sun quietly admiring every bit of that place which was as if a no man's land,undefined or forgotten ,where when I first visited I placed hypothetical objects and characters. movements and equipment just in my mind and today , I can watch everything that I imagined in the music video, ....I had conceptualized to walk and sing in the whole song,it was tough for a small unit , how we achieved it after several days of trial and error on this terrain is another story , it is memorable too, but what a beautiful feeling it is to stand alone quietly being able to remember all the boys in the crew , who are again busy now with their jobs and studies, running around and our local helpers managing in the most difficult of locations and weather... on mountains and in ruins .... I can still hear the noise and shouting and laughters and the echo and then suddenly the noise mutes and I can again listen to the calm wind....

whenever I will pass by these locations in my life all these trees would wave 
and the ruin would smile back at me and shout heyyy Darshan , and if the
 ruin doesn't remain I will always tell my future generations , you see that ruin
 in DIL TU HAI DEEWANA SONG...?..that's where it was.... for me these remains
 would always remain.

चल यारा

चल यारा एक अच्छी सी ज़िन्दगी बनाते हैं ,

जो मैंने खोया , तूने चाहा , संग पाते हैं ,

पुराने गीत जो दफन हैं गले पन्नों में कब से ,

मौका दस्तूर हो ना हो , गुनगुनाते हैं ,

चल यारा एक अच्छी सी ज़िन्दगी बनाते हैं ...... 

बहुत उजाले बाँटे ग़ैरों की महफिलों में जलकर ,

अब थोड़ा खुदका भी घर जगमगाते हैं ,

गिले शिकवों का कबाड़ भर गया है घर में ,

इस दिवाली ढूंढो उन्हें , जलाते हैं ,

जूझे जागे जला किये , जिये नहीं , जीतेजी जी भर 

आ , मरने से पहले अब थोड़ा तो जी के आते हैं ,

 चल यारा एक अच्छी  सी ज़िन्दगी बनाते हैं .... 

जगह ढूंढा किये बुतों के शहर में अपनी ,

जिन अपनों को छोड़ा , उन्हें फिर बुलाते हैं ,

एक छत खरीदने में सुकून लुट गया पूरा ,

अब चल बाहर , बारिश में नहाते हैं ,

हम तो जागा किये सुबह की चिंता में बरसों ,

आ चलकर अब बच्चों को सुलाते हैं ,

चल यारा एक अच्छी सी ज़िन्दगी बनाते हैं..... 

                                                    - दर्शन दवे 

Darshan Dave lynched for negative thinking…….

This ‘positive thinking formula’ in no time enslaved a huge population of scared people who fantasized magical transformation in life with a blind hysteria to discover another trick to achieve ‘success’ ,which in itself is the most madly disoriented word….. this time just saying ‘be positive’ was the shlok, ‘the secret’ was an ever known and repackaged foreign book/video/ business that enticed us more so it became a revolution and I became the only person who was left ‘negative’ ……

In my day to day life it’s the same but if I give an example…… when I plan and shoot my own videos ,all I get to hear from people everywhere around is don’t think negative …..

We are shooting on a mountain , yes before the thought of a successful shot ,I do think of carrying a first aid box, number of the ambulance , umbrellas if it is rainy and where else can we go if we are unable to shoot that portion due to people or weather conditions, I always cast my heroines in advance but always have 2-3 other options because heroines do tend to get unwell often on the last day or something goes wrong in their family, yes I have developed a habit of keeping options in everything , that is why it took me years to learn and practice singing ,writing lyrics , composing , arrangement , programming , mixing, mastering, video direction, editing , colour correction , graphics because when anybody has a problem in any department I can say , work won’t stop …..else I could have managed to release 2-3 videos with extreme dependence 10 years back and that might have been the end of my positive thinking, Yes I always think WHAT IF …. people don’t report, location gets cancelled at the last moment , there is rain , someone opts out , my car breaks down , or there is no electricity at the location …..NOT BECAUSE I AM NEGATIVE which simply means I’m sceptical or unprepared about the plan but my so called negativity is to assure that in no condition would my work stop…and this is how it is , it never stops…. Is this negativity or positivity ?……I will shoot no matter what and this video will get over no matter who opts out, if I have a passion to do things that stereotypically require a set arrangement of several depts. and professionals , in my own way and with my own devised methods and equipments ,I am responsible for everything , if I hate “this is how things are done” sentence I know all those who are working with me even after showing all the positivity will stand gaping at my face if something goes wrong , waiting to say ‘sir films are not made like this’ …..so I take up those challenges again and again, my videos my not look that big or rich or outstanding now but I know I executed it the way people can’t even imagine….with resources people can’t even start in …..and then I am learning and improving with every video…..its enough , so it is really unwelcoming to get this gyan from everybody around who will not have an answer when things won’t work and I know I have taken a responsibility to be answerable , so plz let me not be ok with this baseless mindless concept of positive thinking……there will always be a difference in the thought process of people who watch / love film making and those who execute it….. there is always more going on behind the scenes.Someone has to take responsibility of that too…..

Positive thinking for everyone is like black magic….they believe in it because they think they know it but they don’t understand it enough……

Having fire extinguishers in a huge tower is not negative thinking , having ambulances and fire brigades in a city is not negative thinking , having life guards on sea shore is not negative thinking (it gave us Baywatch)…..having a stepney in the car is not negative thinking , having a medical officer in a football match is not negative thinking , having ropes during mountaineering and parachutes in helicopters is not negative thinking and service stations , hospitals , garages are not negative places…..it is all to assure that THE POSITIVE CONTINUES………

It is the most misunderstood and misinterpreted gyan,… you don’t walk on a rope just because you think positive, you walk when you know how to ….. so the one who is doing riyaaz of singing locked in a room for years thinks more positive than the one who steps on to the stage after a week of singing , you must have seen these amateur teens in reality shows pumping and shouting to themselves coommooon you can do it , be positive be positive ,….YOU DON’T HAVE TO THINK POSITIVE WHEN YOU ARE POSITIVE….. and there are always strong reasons behind positivity …. It is not ABRACADABRA…..

I prefer to avoid loans because yes I do think ‘what if’ I am not able to arrange money for my EMI’s , not because I have any plan to stop earning , only because if tomorrow I don’t like roles offered to me, I can still move on with my peaceful life…and I have arranged all basic things for myself without a single penny on me….no actor can otherwise stop working and set out making videos for his own pleasure before returning to work , I can spend money moderately because I earn, but I save money so that I can live moderately even when I can’t….

I think negative to assure positivity , ……you are just saying we will succeed because our plan will succeed and I try to go a step further and try to assure that we succeed even if things don’t workout the way we believed….. it does take time….but may be our definition of positivity is very different….. Or may be it is bhagya , may be whatever you have planned has been flawless and I have faced several challenges ….U are blessed , Im not may be…. ☺
So when I plan a video , I just ask myself you are starting it would you be able to complete it IF everything goes wrong and everybody and everything backs out , I start it only when I get a YES from within ….and to be able to reach this stage of YES it has taken me years…..I observed that people often used positive thinking as a blindfold to avoid looking at the negative to avoid any hassle of troubleshooting…..
Had I built Titanic I would have assured there are enough life boats and arrangements to save people thinking ,....indeed it is unsinkable, but what if it sinks ?

ORDER ORDER

Why people can't tell you how you can find out truth in their case why they are made to follow your procedure of finding it...?......Why courts and police stations in India are so fake and filmy in their procedure and approach that they are extremely facilitating for criminals and too impractically torturous for innocent who are made to wander , wait and ill treated for years.

You have to listen I have to talk , you are one professional , I am another, I can disclose the truth in 1minute, I have my documents ready let me speak that's it , why such a long procedure and a methodology and process like it is made for illiterates,why this awe, why this fear , discomfort and distress maintained in a court corridor is like you are entering a prison,plz ...... I have not come to a tantrik that I don't know what is happening......, judges and inspectors appear in such dreadful terror, people are discouraged from speaking , lawyers scare then , judges think people don't know which section they are talking in , police people in the court room scold you if you speak ," udhar khade hoiye,lawyer bolega apka aap chup rahiye, haath mat baandhiye judge ke saamne " , and then those copy pasted petitions that even lawyers don't understand and simply copy paste from the net......

I understand that not everyone is from a social or educational background that they even want to know what is going on and why ? Simplest procedures have been made like something out of this world is in progress......you are a judge or an inspector , you are an employee you can talk properly, I won't underestimate you,if I am innocent let it be the best place for me in this world .... is there anything more than presenting the truth in front of the judge , for which you make people wait for years and years , .....I have seen people with files ready asking their lawyer ..... "KYA HUA"? before even coming to know that the judge has moved to the other case and then I have seen people speaking in the court , "No sir I have the papers and witness , and suddenly the lawyer holds your hand and inspectors in the court shouts at you as if you have committed some crime "...., a judge is not kaal bhairav or Yamdoot , enjoy the power and prestige you get with your posts but at least let the procedure of truth be as simple as the truth is.....

MI LOD MI LOD ......wearing talking and following everything that we observed britishers doing but don't even understand that our own people are not understanding what is going on , and the whole purpose gets defeated as the process of law is so lengthy and weirdly procedural.....PLEASE TALK TO ME NICELY.....I CAN PROVE IN A MOMENT WITH EVIDENCES THAT THE ALLEGATION IS FALSE PLEASE LET ME SPEAK ONCE IN NORMAL LANGUAGE,LET ME SUGGEST YOU WHAT YOU CAN DO OR ASK THE OTHER PARTY THAT WILL CLEAR EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW IN A MOMENT,LET IT BE THAT SIMPLE AND INFORMAL without any thy thou petition formats with some compassion and courtesy, I am not a murderer , I am from your country and a respectable professional please don't push don't threaten don't dictate , we all are trying to find the truth , it is a court it is not a torture chamber please........... why its so difficult to feel safe and comfortable in a police station and court when they are made to help and serve people....I really can't afford to consider that you have several more serious pending cases and you don't care about mine,but as a human I can't allow you to take my time , my peace of mind and my life for granted..... please make the procedure of speaking the truth simple.....It might be your 9-5 job but it's all about my trapped life....

BEGUSARAI WRAP UP PARTY

 



Hi all Begusarai Fans so our Begusarai comes to an end, parts of a few actors including me had already ended 2 months back but we were invited to the sets on the last day of shoot for the wrap up party,We knew Mithilesh Lakhan and Priom had to meet once again for the last time..... it is difficult to explain the makers or the channel the concern and obsession and love of actors for their parts,there is no other process of playing a character other than becoming one,when producer walks into a set he knows the cost and a channel person knows the response and TRP , but when an actor enters his set for the last time he is numb every pillar of the set moves behind you in slow motion in a trolley shot , the whole haweli watches you with sadness from the top of the crane and then you turn your head with your eyes moist in a round trolley shot,you want to cry aloud for every character who died or left, you want to walk through every part of the set one last time and smile at every property that made your character, you remember every shot , every corner every frame not only the character,you want to check your hair for the last time in every mirror of the set that you secretly made the setting department put at your height so that you can check yourself even between shots, and when you leave the set for the last time you tend to turn and look at it one last time and embrace it for ever in your memory, it is this love that makes you that character I guess, I did not go for myself but for Mithilesh , I just felt I can't leave him alone.

It takes you moments and moments to make a character day by day and make him memorable as much as you can even if makers or the channel have different plans, but you can't leave your horse lagging behind in the race because others have other horses to bet on..... Darshan will not let Mithilesh become helpless , die a gradual death due to lack of glorification and one day listen he was not working ……my character is my Rath and I am the saarthi,I can't let him bite the dust or lose its track…..he has to standout, I am a musician besides being an actor and trained to understand that when you start singing a song you just can’t change the note till the song ends….the biggest crime in music is to go off key and same is in acting, the biggest inefficiency is to not know what the note of your character is…….so Mithilesh entered his set for the last time met Dadi , his enemy Bindiya, his wife his brothers,daroga sipahi, ghunghroo, and the new generation too, all there new boys came to me and told me we are supposed to be your next generation in the story and I loved the feeling …… anyway it was a great show , Mithilesh will always be close to my heart because I really fought a lot for my Mithilesh and he didn’t let me down,he would always be remembered with Begusarai I guess…Thank you Mithilesh and all the wonderful team of Begusarai,thank you so much.....It was a wonderful experience